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I'm at a point in life where i don't give two f's about anything no more. I feel like a dead body walking. And subhannaAllah my imaan is this low that i don't even bother to pray or make du'as no more, because i think that allah swt is already dissapointed in me. I feel empty, alone and not important. I have never been this uncomfortable or insecure in my 21 years of life. I hope Allah will give me the strength to make the right choices in life and the ability to make something out of myself in sha allah. Because i know i can but i just can't take any steps. I need a push..a big push in sha allah.